Rainy West Coast Days

Life as I've known it, for all my 23 years has now changed completely. The past 5 years have been full of ups and downs and ins and outs but I have never felt so detached from the safety of my oh-so familiar surroundings in Ontario. I could always sit in Montebello Park with my family and our acoustic guitar on any given afternoon and enjoy running into the people we call acquaintances, or call any of my girlfriends and arrange an emergency "girl-night" in the midst of a crisis. Although I longed for this seperation from place that has built so much anxiety and stress into my daily life, I guess I didn't consider how much of a 'friend' I considered that place. Growing up is hard, it's scary and confusing... I feel like I have been stuck in one place for a long, long time and needed somewhere to pull-apart, disect, reprioritize and regroup and ultimately grow. I have only been here a short time but I know I am where I need to be, but with growth comes growing pains and the distance hurts. It is raining and grey today and I am feeling quite lonely- I miss my family and friends and the security of knowing where I am and how I fit there.